Never in my life have I been this sore, I worked out on Friday and again today and am still sore from Friday. My dad has me doing this crossfit fitness and it s intense! It's a high itensity workout so you burn fat like crazy. I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow and that will be my starting weight along with my body measurements.

I'm back and more modivated than ever. Diet starts now, update tomorrow.

 God, where have I been on this site? It's been way to long. My life right now is chaos and I love it, haha. My grades are good, I'm going to community college for a while before transfering somewhere else probably, haven't figured it out yet. So much has happened between Tyler and me, it's unreal and it's official. We're just not meant to be together, and I have to accept that. It gets a little easier each day but it's still difficult seeing him with his girlfriend. He doesn't even act like he likes her, but either way I'm done with him. If fate wanted us together, I think we would have been by now. There are a couple other guys in my life but honestly I'm not that into them, and I don't want to date them because I'll just be leading them on and then I'll feel like shit, so it'd be best to avoid that whole situation. My eating habits are in the toilet right now, I'll eat what I want when I want and I need to stop. I'm back at 118 and need to get down to 105 maybe even 100? Who knows, I'll see how I feel when I get to that weight. Has anyone tried diet pills? Which ones would you guys recommend?

Life Update.

School has been in for about a month now and I'm already sick of it. I need to graduate and move on with my life. School work is irrelevant in my life right now, I'm just doing it to Ace my classes. I've talking with the guy who screwed me over and I'm not sure how I feel anymore. We have been texting and flirting non stop and I'm not going to share what we do when we hang out. They're just private moments I don't want anyone to know. I want him to ask me out but at the same time I don't expect him too. People are asking me what's going on with us and I just tell them nothing, I don't even know what's going on between us. It's very confusing and frustrating. I still don't know what to get him for his birthday, any ideas? He's the all american guy.

I weigh 113 pounds. Everyone is saying how thin I look and keep asking if I am eating. I laughed and said of course. Truth is, I haven't really eaten anything since this guy I've had feelings for, for about three years screwed me over. I'm trying to eat, but I just am not hungry. I need to start eating normally again, I don't need a reapeat of sophmore year.

Screw men, they're all assholes.